all thanks to those assignments and presentations,
which took up most of time, including my beauty sleep.
Sleeping means the world to me and my family and friends knows
me well enough i need at least 8hrs of sleep per day, excluding the
naps i have sometimes.
when i don't have enough sleep, i'll start to have mood swings,
just like today, at work.
Even i my boss realized something was wrong with me and
he was being kind, asking me if i'm OK and all
but i barely answered him, just mumbled "i don't know".
i hated myself when i'm acting like that but i can't help it ><
And lately, there are so many things on my mind:
first comes the school thing, trying my best to reach teacher's expectations,worrying if i'll be able to do well or even graduate ><
then, i'm concerning about my future: will i get employ,
before this, am i doing enough preparations to face all the test and interviews...
i know i'll have a lot more to do and prepare....
Right now, it feels like i'm torned between "what i'm suppose to do" and
"what i want to do" and it is hard to balance both.
since it's my life, why i don't get to decide what i want to do with it.
instead, i'm stuck with what i'm suppose to do, in order of meeting peoples expectations
because i care what others think of me><
Why are we living in such a complicated world ?!
It's only the starting of a new semester but i'm already feeling tired and bumped out.
can i even survived the rest of the semester,
please pray hard for me .>o<
-THE END-
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